Had to find some higher ground
Had some fear to get around
You can’t say what you don’t know
Later on won’t work no more
It’s 6am on a Saturday and I have no idea why I’m awake. The new year will be here soon, and 2011 can be left to bad memories. Yes, 2011 has tried to redeem itself in the last moments, but I still want it to go away.
Last time through I hid my tracks So well I could not get back Yeah my way was hard to find Can’t sell your soul for peace of mind It’s no secret that 2011 sucked. (And if we’re keeping score, the last four months of 2010 were pretty awful. Basically everything fell apart and went downhill when I moved to DC in September 2010) I seem to have made a point of destroying every potential good to cross my path.
That was 2011, and I am most decidedly guilty. in 2012, I am starting all over again (again. again. again.)
Square One, my slate is clear Rest your head on me my dear Took a world of trouble, took a world of tears It took a long time, to get back here This has been a battle, no doubt. I cried more days than I didn’t. I watched way more TV than I’ve ever watched in my life. I wore pajama pants most of the time. I yelled random comments and carried on odd sleeping habits.
Tried so hard to stand alone Struggle to see past my nose Always had more dogs than bones I could never wear those clothes It’s a dark victory You’ve won and you also lost Told her you were satisfied But it never came across I have a job. I have a place to live (which is within walking distance of said job, bonus times 19000). I have a roommate who is awesome (no Keithers, never as awesome as you). I have local friends who would let me crash on their couch, and non local friends who send me plane tickets and I have my best friends who somehow manage to love me even though I’ve been wrong about a billion times. I have my family/pseudo-family. I’m really, really lucky.
And I know, you’re thinking my “I have” column is really long, why the hell do I keep bitching about 2011. 2011 was an awful year for me and almost anyone I know. If I had been without the amazing people in my life, I don’t know where I’d be. Probably dead. People saved me this year, again and again. For me, an introvert and misanthrope, who hates people? Yeah, I revise my opinion. People can be amazing. My parents, my current and former roommate, my best friend(s) have confirmed that to me in 2011. Square one, my slate is clear Rest your head on me my dear It took a world of trouble Took a world of tears Took a long time To get back here And to those in the know, I love you an incredible amount. Thank you so much for being here this year when I needed you.
Last time through I hid my tracks So well I could not get back Yeah my way was hard to find Can’t sell your soul for peace of mind It’s no secret that 2011 sucked. (And if we’re keeping score, the last four months of 2010 were pretty awful. Basically everything fell apart and went downhill when I moved to DC in September 2010) I seem to have made a point of destroying every potential good to cross my path.
That was 2011, and I am most decidedly guilty. in 2012, I am starting all over again (again. again. again.)
Square One, my slate is clear Rest your head on me my dear Took a world of trouble, took a world of tears It took a long time, to get back here This has been a battle, no doubt. I cried more days than I didn’t. I watched way more TV than I’ve ever watched in my life. I wore pajama pants most of the time. I yelled random comments and carried on odd sleeping habits.
Tried so hard to stand alone Struggle to see past my nose Always had more dogs than bones I could never wear those clothes It’s a dark victory You’ve won and you also lost Told her you were satisfied But it never came across I have a job. I have a place to live (which is within walking distance of said job, bonus times 19000). I have a roommate who is awesome (no Keithers, never as awesome as you). I have local friends who would let me crash on their couch, and non local friends who send me plane tickets and I have my best friends who somehow manage to love me even though I’ve been wrong about a billion times. I have my family/pseudo-family. I’m really, really lucky.
And I know, you’re thinking my “I have” column is really long, why the hell do I keep bitching about 2011. 2011 was an awful year for me and almost anyone I know. If I had been without the amazing people in my life, I don’t know where I’d be. Probably dead. People saved me this year, again and again. For me, an introvert and misanthrope, who hates people? Yeah, I revise my opinion. People can be amazing. My parents, my current and former roommate, my best friend(s) have confirmed that to me in 2011. Square one, my slate is clear Rest your head on me my dear It took a world of trouble Took a world of tears Took a long time To get back here And to those in the know, I love you an incredible amount. Thank you so much for being here this year when I needed you.
