Well, I was feeling somewhat better. Thursday was a much better day than Wednesday.  But the stress and frustration is still lurking, because at lunch I discovered the chip in my windshield had become a very large hairline crack. The windshield will have to be replaced. And you know, it’s not like I don’t have the money for it. I do. Especially with all this overtime I’m working. But instead of just being relieved by the fact that I can pay for it, and it’s not a financial hardship, I’m annoyed that I have to spend money on something so stupid. There’s lots of other things I could have done with that money, including make an entire extra car payment. ARG.

So now I’m in a bad mood again, and I find myself thinking “the universe hates me.” I hate this phrase; I hate when people use it, I hate it as a facebook status, and I hate it as a blog entry, and so I hate that it even entered my head. I think I am overly concerned about being negative, because I used to be a really ridiculously negative, pessimistic person, and it was only much later that I realized how unpleasant/annoying I must have been to be around. These days, I do try very hard to see the good side of things, to be grateful for the things that are good. It’s like I feel a strong obligation to let people know that I KNOW things could be worse, and I KNOW I’m lucky, because I don’t want to have to hear that from other people.

Seriously, I think that’s what it about. Having people tell me what I already know is immensely frustrating to me. I don’t know why. I guess it’s a fear of being viewed as naive? I don’t know.  I’m immensely annoyed. Nothing else better happen today at work, because I can probably only get away with yelling at my boss once in a week.