I logged into my UChicago webmail account today, because I got a warning email saying I lose it in December. I want to go through and forward anything I might want to save from there.

Scrolling through my in-box just made me cringe and brought back all the uncomfortable feelings of being in grad school. I can’t put words to them exactly, but it was not a pleasant feeling. I could only get through a couple pages on the inbox before I had to sign out.

The whole thing still feels like a dream. Not a nightmare exactly, not even a really bad dream, just a really, really weird dream, where you wake up, and you think you’re pretty glad that none of that is actually your reality, because it just doesn’t feel right.