In a mild fit of paranoid, I went back and locked a whole bunch of entries, particularly anything related to my school, program or thesis. I’m debating just using the mass edit thing and locking the whole thing, but I like having my non-LJ friends-list as part of my audience. I may do the “leave an entry public for a week” thing. But, I figured even with having the search engine block, there aren’t too many girls at this school, in this program, studying what I’m studying. And I don’t want people to find me from searches of my fascist boyfriend, because then they’re most likely fellow academics, and this journal reveals way too much of my silly, drama-queen, emo side.

I am braindead from working on my thesis. I am at the point where I need someone else to look at it, because its just a big jumble right now. When I wrote it, I divided my argument into sections and then went merrily through, imputing pulled quotes, little stream-of-consciousness rants, etc. So all the evidence for my argument is in there SOMEWHERE I’m just so close to the topic I’m no longer capable of figuring out which parts make sense, what needs to be moved to other paragraphs, and what sentences just need to be rewritten. This is why I keep dreaming about writing paragraphs and walk around editing in my head. The argument is there, and I know what my evidence is in my head, I just can’t find it in my paper anymore, so its no where near where it needs to be to be a good rough draft.

Bleh. And I’m also paranoid I’m not using enough sources. I really wish I could read German.

Okay. Time to go read something that isn’t Schmitt and fall asleep